Silent screams inside my head begging for:

You

Your fingers
trailing down my spine
dancing across my flesh
pinching, tugging, pulling
teasing my nipples to erect, firm pebbles

Your nails
clawing
scratching
engraving your passion on my flesh

Your hands
caressing
groping
grabbing
Squeezing
SLAPPING

Your whip
lashing me into oblivion
kissing my flesh again and again
engraving Your love on my flesh

Your name
The needle darting in and out of my flesh
A trail of color
tracing the appellation of the creature to whom i belong

Your mark
The hot iron
searing into my flesh
permanently branding me on the outside to match the imprint on my heart

My hunger brings tears to my eyes
My thoughts are frantic
Make my flesh match the exquisite pain you’ve etched on my soul
Oh that the awe-inspiring master of me would hear my plea
I beg you
Quench this terrible thirst
Bring to the outside what is driving me insane on the inside

Silent screams inside my head begging for:

You

The curve of my back as I thrust my breasts forward.
The curve of my lips as adoration crosses them
The curve of my knees with my legs tucked under me
My eyes on the floor
My heart in your hands
You touch my face and your fingers trail to the leather round my neck
And finally I receive what I am begging for

Untrusting
Suspicious
Apprehensive
Paranoia eating at my soul
Ridiculously making assumptions I could not possibly have reasons for.

A bazillion things to say and only one or two come out.
A thousand apologies
A million I love yous
And still no reprieve

Anger, hurt and sadness dance in your eyes
Leaves in a tornado on a hot summer day.

A piercing paroxysm stabbing into my heart.
A weight of a thousand worlds on my chest crushing my lungs
Leaving me gasping for breath
The crack of a whip as it executes any justification left lingering.
It begins

And now I have been justly, soundly whipped for my transgression
And still the self-flagellation continues
And still I tear myself to shreds
And still I beg for forgiveness
For some way to redeem myself
The worst torture
The most catastrophic punishment
I see it in your eyes
And my world collapses into a zillion minuscule pieces

A kiss
A gentle smile
“I love you, Master”
“I love you, too”
My face glides to the pillow
Your hand slides over my back
Sleep.

I open my eyes
Kneeling, hands behind me
Fear overcomes
Where am I?
What’s going on?
I begin to tremble
My eyes flit from side to side praying to find something familiar
Something comforting
Your face
“Who are You?”
No reply
Our eyes meet
A calm
One I have never felt before
“Do I… know you?”
Something nagging in the back of my mind
You start toward me
You stand in front of me
My hands grasp my hair
My head bows exposing my neck
I have no control
Over the situation
Over my own body
Over anything
Yet i remain calm
I feel something encircle my neck
I bend further
Lay my face on your feet
“Master”
My heart swells
I fear it will burst
The love we share overflows into every fiber of my being
I am yours
You are proud
“I love you, Master”

“I love you, too, little girl”
Your hand smoothing my hair from my face
My content smile as I slip back to dreamland