Duct Tape/Cling Film Dress created by a friend. And yes, that's me

Yes, I disappeared for a little while again.  I know, I’m a bad girl.  I should be spanked.  Really, I wouldn’t object.  Alright…maybe just a wee bit.

I’ve been dealing with quite a bit this past week.  I came home from my fabulous weekend with my Daddy to hear horrible news of a dear friend of mine’s murder.  Trust me.  It’s been one HELL of a roller coaster.  I’m not going to dwell on the sad news, but rather the good news since that’s what you readers out there want to read.

Daddy (yes, he came out and said, boldly, that he is my Daddy) and I spent the weekend together this one past.  It was a wonderful end to the break and a great start to my semester.  Last weekend was the weekend we had agreed to explore together and experience my full submission physically.  It turned out better than I think he and I both expected.

For starters, when I arrived at their house on Friday afternoon I was put to work.  It felt good to fall into my role as their submissive to easily.  I find great release and joy in serving and have always had a desire to explore domestic service.  I got my chance and I felt right at home.  I cleaned while they both ran errands and made last minute preparations for the party we were having that night.  When he came home it was just so perfect.  I was listening to my iPod and just dancing around with the broom when he walked through the door and kissed me.  It was perfect because the song that was playing right when he grabbed me was “I Got a Feeling” by the Black Eyed Peas.  And yes, it was a sign that the night was going to be fabulous indeed.

He pulled me to him and kissed me so deeply that I was lost.  I felt the world just slip away and I melted into him.  He slid his hands down my back and slipped my pants off.  I pressed myself against him a bit and he threw me over the back of a chair before he assaulted my pussy with his fingers.  I was soaked waiting for him.  He hadn’t let me touch myself for two days.  I was dripping juice down my legs and his fingers.  And then he commanded me cum, right then and there in the foyer…and I did.  My knees nearly buckled beneath me as I came on him and he just smiled before slapping my ass and going to the kitchen to start cooking.  Read more…

I apologize for the delay in my posting.  That silly thing called life got in the way of my posting.  We should tie it up and beat it into submission.  Hey, it sounded like a good idea to me.

The past few weeks have definitely been interesting.  I say interesting because of the fact that I had two awesome weeks and one and a half absolutely awful.  Let’s start with the awful and work our way up from there.  The past week and a half I’ve been sick.  It started as the flu and now I think I’ve got bronchitis.  Wonderful, right?  Oh, it only gets better.  On top of coughing my lungs up and shoving them back down into my chest, I’ve got two projects, a paper, and finals coming up.  Doesn’t my life sound dandy?  You’re damn right it is.  /sarcasm.

Now, onto happier things.  First of all, I have a job interview on Thursday.  I am so excited about possibly working retail again for Christmas.  Last year I worked through the holiday and loved the rush.  Day after Thanksgiving shopping was insane, but I enjoyed the 13 hour shift I had the privilege of working.  I’m not being sarcastic either.  I might need to get a shot from the doctor on Wednesday.  My sarcasm fountain is running dry.

Alright, now that I’ve caught you up on current events, let’s delve into the past.  I got to see my wonderful M two weekends in a row.  I went through withdrawls when I couldnt’ see him last weekend.  Trust me, the distance isn’t that bad since we are only three hours from each other, but the fact that I won’t see him again until the week before Christmas really blows a load.  We will get through it, though.  I’ve got enough to keep me busy until then with school.

So, let me take you on a journey back to Halloween weekend.  And so we begin. Read more…

So I was pretty convinced the picture-taking wasn’t going to happen.  It’s hard relinquishing our “hang out and relax” time to performing.  In front of or behind the camera.  But relinquish it we did.  And pictures were taken.  Pictures I don’t ever want anyone to see.  Well… except one or two.

I suck at the whole model-face thing.  And I’d just sit and look normal except my “sit and look normal” face looks like “uber bitch” to everyone else.  So I’m gonna have to start practicing facial expressions in the mirror or something.  Seriously.

Master wasn’t watching my face.  He was watching my pussy.  Through the lens of His camera.  As I thrusted my BOB in and out over and over.

He kept telling me what to do.  “Okay now play with your clit.”  “Fuck yourself some more.”  “Hold it open so I can beat it.”  *screeching halt* What?

I tried.  I swear to god, I tried (Yes, I see the irony in me swearing to something I don’t believe in).  Can I just say that shit fucking hurts?  Especially when He’s hitting as hard as He can there first.  But He really was trying to rip my pussy lips off with the flogger to find a happy medium.  Somewhere between gruesome torture the way He likes to hit and feather like caresses how much my pussy can handle right off the bat.  Apparently I’m more of a warm-up girl than I realized. Read more…

Master fucked all three holes in twenty-four hours.

I hear ya.  I hear ya.

What’s so unusual about that?

Well, ya see…  It is very unusual for Master to fuck all three holes in twenty-four hours.  Matter of fact, if He fucks my mouth and pussy in the same day it’s odd.  He’s the type that decides on a hole and sticks with it for that day.  Or maybe for a week.  There were a couple months where I was lucky if He was in anything but my mouth.  No lie.

I’m not sure that He does it consciously.  Matter of fact, He probably doesn’t even realize He does it.  Well, until He reads this, that is.

But you see…  This is what happened.

We’re watching South Park, okay?  And we’re both a little intoxicated.  Okay, we’re both a lot intoxicated.  And I really don’t remember what prompted it but He said something about “Why don’t you touch your cunt, Cunt?” or something and I thought I was in for a night of serious hurting.  I was totally ready for a night of serious hurting.

I got my night of serious hurting… just not the way I expected to.

Apparently, just gathering the clamps I could find was enough to give Master an unbearable hard-on.  Cause I’d only clamped my nipples once and my clit twice before He said, “I think you should get on your hands and knees in front of me.”  I hadn’t even brought the paddle or cane out.  Just the slut-paddle.  And I brought that out with the intention of beating my pussy. Read more…

So I’ve been jealously guarding the details of Saturday night. They’re mine, damn it. And I wanted to keep them. At least for a little while.

Of course, part of that is because I got lost somewhere in the middle. I forgot what happened almost as it was happening.

I don’t think I can, in good conscience, consider subspace something I can’t attain anymore. We were definitely doing it wrong. And it’s my fault for not speaking up sooner.

One of our favorite things to do, lately, is have insanely long, insanely intense mutual masturbation sessions that eventually turn into wild monkey sex. Let me tell you how giant a step this is for us. Somehow, I think if we’d both opened up this much six years ago we’d have had fewer problems along the way. Maybe not. Who knows, right?

I still don’t remember much. I remember Master wanted me to torture my clit. Had said so two or three times throughout the day before we ended up on the couch watching porn. But I wasn’t interested. I wanted to be beaten. Read more…

I had plenty more to say about the past few days but I didn’t think the last entry was a good place for it. So you guys get more than one entry from me today! Aren’t you excited.

Last night, when I was thoroughly inebriated and beyond ready for bed, I turned and looked at Master. He stared at me for a minute and then ordered me to the floor. Only this time, He just wanted me close. And He ordered me to hug His leg. The permagrin on my face was no longer caused by the amount of alcohol I had consumed. I sat with my legs and arms wrapped around His calf and my cheek resting on His thigh. After a minute I reached for my blanket and wrapped it around myself and His leg. He made some joking comment about cold pussy and I drifted happily in and out of sleep until He was ready for bed.

This morning I woke to Him lazily stroking my right breast and pinching the nipple lightly. He said, “Baby needs to go make Daddy’s coffee.”

I opened one eye and peered at Him a minute before saying, “I heard Daddy say distinctly that He was gonna make His own coffee and breakfast and let baby sleep!” I giggled as He pinched harder and muttered something about what happens to lying bitches. Today has been a good day.

On Thursday, He told me He was going to beat me sometime yesterday or today. At first, I said I didn’t want Him to… I thought He meant I was going to be punished more than I already had. After laughing at my temporary delusion that my not wanting Him to might stop Him, He asked why not and told me He was going to anyway.

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Yesterday was beef stew for dinner. Which means that if I want dinner ready almost exactly when Master gets home (I’m off on Friday and Saturday), everything has to go in the slow cooker at 9:15am. I forgot. I forgot until I went into the kitchen and saw the slow cooker sitting on the stove. It was 10:30 when I got everything in the pot and turned on, pushing dinner time to 6:30. A full hour after He got home. That could be hazardous to my health.

Not because dinner was supposed to be ready by the time He got home. But because that gives Him a full hour between when He walks through the door and when He sits down to eat to do whatever it is He wants with my body while He’s still wired from work. While He still has energy. And the second “You should be naked, slut.” left His lips, almost as soon as He stepped in the door, I realized He planned to take advantage.

“Come over here and spend some time on the floor.” He said. And I cringed a little as I scrubbed the lip gloss from my lips. His voice had that tone that says, I have an idea. And my stomach fluttered nervously as I realized it meant He wouldn’t reveal His plans until the minute He was ready to.

I curled up at His feet and licked and kissed His thigh as He searched online for a new game to play. I remember getting annoyed because He always makes it seem like He’s ignoring me when I’m on the floor, which is well within His right. And then He told me to rub my tits on Him (“Let me feel those big tits, cunt.”) and the annoyance was gone. Overcome by embarrassment. Humiliation.

It wasn’t long before He sent me on my way to find something for Him to hurt me with. I asked what He wanted and He said “Surprise me.” I knelt before the toy trunk and stared as my pussy got wetter and wetter and my body began to tremble with anticipation and I wished I didn’t have to choose. Choosing the implement of torture He uses on my body fills me with so much anxiety. What if it’s not what He wanted? What if it’s more than I can handle? What if…

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Words of encouragement filled my ears driving me to strive
harder to please Him. â??Thatâ??s a good little bitch.â? â??Thatâ??s it. Lick like the
animal you are.â? â??Youâ??re such a good whore.â? And I pressed on under the lash of
His whip, loving every second of serving Himâ?¦ Pleasing Him.

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So I guess by this time you know what happened last night.
We both went to bed pretty fucked up. Between the drinks and other stuff, we
were pretty knackered. I canâ??t remember if I fell asleep between Him telling me
I could stop licking Him and lay down and Him pulling me to Him and kissing me.
I donâ??t remember all the details before He did it. I just remember my face mere
inches away from His and a huge wad of spit splattering in my eye, up my nose,
on my cheek. It dripped down my face but somehow completely missed my lips. And
He pulled my face to His and made me lick and kiss Him with spit drying on my
skin.

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Eventually, after I'd stopped pouting, He told me to crawl to Him. He was holding an unwrapped truffle just above His knee. When I got to Him on hands and knees, He
fed me a truffle like you would feed a dog a treat. And I lavished it like the
dog, taking it from His fingers ever so gently with my teeth, then biting into
it and sucking on the sweet inside.

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