Thirty Letters in Thirty Days
… Or not. We’ll see, I guess.
I know… I know… Everyone’s doing it. And at first, when I saw it, I wasn’t going to do it. I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings, and there’s still a lot of stuff I keep to myself. Just the thought of putting everything out there makes me feel a little squicked out.
I’ve been talking to M and a few of my friends about the situation with my parents, and my sister, and my past, and… And it’s becoming more and more apparent that I really just need to get the poison that is driving me crazy out of my system, even if they never see/hear it. So I’ve decided that if there’s anything too personal, or something I don’t feel belongs here, I’ll just make it private.
I called it “Thirty Letters in Thirty Days” and I’m going to try to stick with that. But I’ve never been much good at blogging daily, so I’m making no promises. And I’m not a sequential writer, by any means. Every story I’ve ever written has started at the end. So I may skip around.
I’ll be writing separate letters to my mother and father, and a letter for each of my sisters, and they probably won’t be all inclusive. Sometimes I find myself feeling like I shouldn’t discuss how I perceive my childhood, or relationship with my family, on the internet because they might find it, and they don’t agree with my view. As the years go by, and I seem to be the only one bothered by the way things are, I’m slowly caring less and less.
M falls under some of these headings. My friends fall under some of these headings. My family falls under some of these headings. And I am so not writing ten letters to the same person. So in the interest of diversity, each letter most of the letters will be to a different people. (M just pointed out that some of them can’t be to anyone other than Him.)
Day 1 — Your best friend
Day 2 — Your husband
Day 3 — Your parents – Dad, Dad #2, Mom
Day 4 —Your sibling – Bio-Sis, Baby Sis
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your ex-boyfriend
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror